I have recently found peace and joy through my photography and meditations. Even though I am in the most picturesque surf camp and private beach, my heart still feels empty. It's like theres a little piece missing, and I have a feeling it has something to do with not being spiritually fulfilled. I have gotten to a place on this trip where I have realized how important it is for me to be on my own to feel fully complete with just myself, and not be dependent on anyone including friends to make me happy. This place is the ultimate surf/beach party every night with hundreds of people partying all the time, and sometimes I just need to escape to clear my thoughts. I went to the beach the other day and found a spot on my own and did yoga, meditated, and prayed. I felt so renewed afterwards and full again. Then, yesterday when I was feeling empty again I went for a walk at sunset and practiced my photography. Here, they have a whole department of photography and these amazing cameras with huge lenses. I was inspired by their photography of the surfers and I decided to try it on my own camera to see if I could get some similar results. It was so much fun and so therapeutic. It still seems crazy to me that in a paradise like this, I still need to control my thoughts so much, but that's what this trip is about after all. It's a journey to find continuous joy. Something that's not just temporary or fleeting, but a joy that can withstand anything. There's nothing more therapeutic than the ocean, and living here 1 minute away from it, I go surfing or swimming every day to clear my thoughts and forget about everything on my mind.
I recently had a could-be-terrible day. It all started because I misread the bus timetable by 5 minutes. When we missed our first bus, it made us miss the coach to go to the next destination. We ended up stuck at a train station all day until 10pm, weighed down by our luggage and wouldnt get to our hostel until 3am on St. Patrick's Day.
I have been traveling with a girl I met in Sydney who was also traveling alone up the coast. She has taught me so much about life without even knowing it. She has the most positive attitude on life of anyone that I have ever known, no matter what the situation at hand. One of the most important things she taught me was on this day, when I was so angry at myself and couldn't get over the mistake that I had made. She never once got angry at me, and she showed me how to make the most of a could-be-terrible day. We made up things to do like little kids all day long trying to pass the time. We waited at the train station till 10pm playing games like I Spy, Marry/Kiss/Void, doing summersaults in the grass, practicing my photography, makeovers on the side of the street, exercising, people watching, and drinking wine to the sunset. It turned out to be one of the most amazing days, and all because of the positive outlook she had on our day. This is proof of how a positive attitude can change your day from being an absolutely horrible one to an amazing one!