With my new discoveries in the fashion world as I explore different websites and trends, I realized that I am getting so caught up in the glitter, literally. I drool over sequins and Jeffrey Campbells and runways and things that I simply can't afford. Don't get me wrong, there is no harm in lusting over fashion. I think there is just a point which I crossed over to where I am a little too focused on the fact that I want so many things that I have lost my perspective. I need to re-balance my life. I saw the most beautiful simple wedding pictures today of a long ago friend and it struck me how engulfed I am in these thoughts of "I wish I had that" and "If only, then I could have that." The truth is, those Jeffrey Campbells that I want more than anything right now it seems, would bring me temporary pleasure, and there is so much more that I should be thankful that I already have. It's all about balance, and I need to regain that balance. These wedding photos showed me that deep happiness and contentment can be found without all those things I am wishing I had. There is so much good around me that I should soak up the light that people radiate around me. I read a quote today that was new to me, though I'm sure it's a common one. "There is no key to happiness, the door is always open." I want to learn to focus on enjoying beautiful things in a way that is more balanced, by looking inward, around me, and occasionally on the runways. There is so much beauty around us, and we just have to open ourselves to it.
I keep thinking of this one part of Eat, Pray, Love today over and over.
"If you clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a vacuum there, an open spot – a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with the doorway? It will rush in – God will rush in – and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed."
These are some photos from her wedding.